Saturday, 20 January 2018

My Life as a Shy Guy Episode 12

The following week, I
made sure that I woke
up very early in order
to get to school on time.
I knew I had a lot to cover.
Sharon gave me her notebooks
for me to go through all what
was thought in class the
previous week. I didn’t go
home immediately after
lectures. I had to cover what
was thought the previous week
before going home. I located
an empty class where I could
sit alone and go through all
what was thought the previous
week. I busied myself
immediately.
After 10 minutes of reading, I
heard someone calling my
name. my heart missed a beat
when I realized it was a
familiar voice. I prayed
silently that it shouldn’t be
who I was thinking. I slowly
raised my head to see Sylvia
standing at the door. my eyes
widen in shock. How did she
find me here? what is she
even doing here? I thought
Mustack told me that he didn’t
say anything to her. so he lied
to me. what will I do now?
how will I get out of this. what
will she do or say this time?
I’m finished.
She started walking towards
me. her every step increased
my heartbeat. I thought of
jumping out through the
window but decided against it,
knowing fully well that I might
injure myself if I do that. since
I had no other idea of what to
do, I only fixed my gaze on the
floor and awaited what would
befall me. she got to me and
stood beside me.
“hi Christian” she said
I slowly raised my head to see
if she was actually the one
standing beside me or not,
because I was expecting her to
start barking immediately she
get to me.
“can I sit?” she asked, pointing
to the available space beside
me.
I didn’t respond. I just kept
staring blankly into air. what
is she trying to do this time? I
thought.
“can I sit?” she repeated when
I didn’t respond.
I nodded and she immediately
sat beside me. she fixed her
gaze on the book I was holding
without saying a word. I was
uncomfortable having her by
my side. After a while of
deafening silence, she finally
spoke.
“Christian I actually…” she
paused
“I don’t even know how to say
this right now” she continued
“I don’t have any excuse for
my action the other day. I
really don’t know what came
over me. I left home very
angry that day, because
someone offended me. I was so
angry to the extent that I was
having headache. I just had to
unleash the anger in me
before it chokes me. that was
why I got mad at you when
you only try to pay my fare.
I’m really sorry. I just hope
you can forgive me. I have
always wanted to apologize all
this while but was scared you
might get mad at me. I’m very
sorry. please forgive me” she
pleaded.
I didn’t respond. I just kept
staring into air. The fact that
Sylvia, who I thought was
actually coming to descend on
me, was actually apologizing,
made me surprised.
She placed her hand on my
shoulder and stared into my
eyes. I couldn’t stare back at
her. I fixed my gaze on the
floor.
“Christian please forgive me.
I’m really sorry” she said
“I have forgiven you” I
managed to say.
I had to say it, for her to stop
boring hole on my body. her
closeness was making me very
uncomfortable. I was not even
angry with her in the first
place.
“I know that didn’t come from
your heart” she said
“I have forgiven you. I was not
even angry with you.” I said
“I don’t believe you. Okay if
you have really forgiven me
like you said, let me invite you
to my place for dinner tonight.
if you accept, I will know that
you have really forgiven me”
she said
‘Your place’ i mumbled to
myself. She wants to put me in
a tight position now. why can’t
she just believe that I have
forgiven her. now, she’s
inviting me for dinner. I had
never been comfortable having
a lady in my room. going to a
lady’s house might be
disastrous. how will I politely
turn down her request? that’s
one of my problem. I don’t
know how to politely turn
down a lady’s request. I always
agree to all their request, no
matter what it cost me.
“do you accept my invitation?
she asked
“okay” I nodded
“thanks very much I’m really
grateful.” she said
“okay” I responded
“I can see you were busy
before I came. let me leave
you, so that you can continue
with what you are doing” she
said
“okay” I responded
she stood up, carried her bag
and left.
I couldn’t continue with what I
was reading. I parked my
books and left the class. I went
straight home to prepare
myself for the dinner in order
not to embarrass myself in her
house.
Tbc

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